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Perfect

Are you like me? Do you live thinking that perfection is just around the bend – a more ideal version of your life where you will do everything perfectly? Well, it’s becoming obvious to me that this unnatural state will never get here.

I often expect people to be perfect. I don’t allow for their complete and complex humanity. I tend to strive for a kind of artificial ideal that does not include the whole self. I exclude my own humanness.

I have lived many days wondering if I will ever get things “right.” I have put off life itself while waiting for an imagined future where I will do everything “perfectly.” But this unnatural state will never get here, because making mistakes is the human experience.

It’s all designed to move us forward. Life affords a unique chance to evolve. It gives us a dramatic and dual world. When things are more loving, as they are where we come from, we remain more static. But, when we are here and are faced with human challenges, these repeated difficulties push us to grow. We are offered the opportunity to learn about ourselves and to develop rapidly at the soul level.

What we perceive as imperfection is simply a chance to evolve, and this is the journey. The process is the purpose, and knowing this reminds me to live right now, rather than for an imagined scenario that will never be. Most importantly, the journey is perfect in how it teaches. And we, as expressions of God, are divinely perfect within. We are gorgeous in our unique power.

As an artist, I have noticed that the most beautiful things are not trying to be artificially perfect. They are truthful, and as such, we can relate to them. They call on us to embrace our whole selves and yet to reach higher towards beauty’s ideal. Maybe this shows the appeal for the perfect life I’ve been trying to get to, but what I have been missing is that it’s how we handle things that matters most.

You see, life is a spiritual practice, whether we’re ready or not. It is trying to teach us how to deal with our inevitable challenges. We will always be presented with the painful difficulties we wanted to go through, for that is the point of being here. And even when we fail to rise above our difficulties, our spirits still gain immense lessons to take back home.

I have found that my humanity becomes most obvious when I’m faced with personal upsets. I know all too well the reality of applying spiritual ideals to the messy soup of life, a test I often fail with emotional embarrassment. But, there is always a giant gift beneath the fiascoes I was born to perpetuate. Often, I only see this years later when I finally recognize God’s perfect design. I become moved to say, “Thank you for this lesson, for I could not have gotten here without it.”

It is so freeing to live in authenticity rather than pretending to be perfect. Expectations can be so high amidst our glaring difficulties, but if we let go of this false sense of control, we get to see the truth and know real freedom.

Lately, I find myself rejoicing in the small mistakes I make for the feeling of acceptance they bring. I am wanting to stop fighting the frustration around me, and instead ask, “What is the lesson here?” I am wanting to be open enough to say “I don’t know, please teach me.” I am learning to love my human self completely, with all of my light and shadow. These are the grand opportunities that life offers, and I am striving to cherish these immeasurable gifts.

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Detach

Last year, I read about an inspiring Native American “Give Away Ceremony.” In the ceremony, the participants permanently give up a cherished belonging, and subsequently, experience tremendous growth.

Spiritual teacher Drunvalo Melchizedek describes the purpose of releasing something we feel we can’t live without: “because we place so much value on our possessions, and because our emotional body is also often connected to these possessions, profound healings can occur.” The participants in the book each give a sentimental keepsake away and feel deeply changed by what is accomplished. It is a simple exercise that becomes transformational.

While reading this, I thought of my most prized belonging. It is a gold ring that my parents gave me for Christmas at 14. The ring is a simple vintage wedding band, and I’ve worn it for 27 years. Over the years, it has become a kind of symbol to always be true to myself.

This ring bridges my past with my future. Along the way, it has become a token of parental love, self-respect, and consistency. Such is the emotional attachment I have given to this object. And I have felt that I could never, ever part with it.

Well, six months ago in a bout of pre-travel frenzy, I accidentally threw the ring out. Now of course, I didn’t purposefully give my possession away in a beautiful ceremony. I mistakenly sent it to the garbage dump. But I did have to let it go. Consequently, I experienced some invaluable growth.

Material things can largely be replaced, but the emotions that we attach to them are very hard to say goodbye to. At first, I mourned the loss of my little belonging – I’d been through a lot while wearing this ring, but in some ways it held me captive there. My emotions quickly turned into release, and I began to feel a break from the past – from old patterns and expectations, from self-evaluations and limits, and all I’d long associated with it. I began to mentally detach from other objects too – my home, my possessions, and so many things that I used to hold on to very tightly that made me feel safe. All this from a little piece of jewelry.

I became grateful for the unfolding lesson and felt motivated to reinvent myself beyond prior definitions. I realized that I don’t need anything, and especially not a ring so that I can be true to myself.

Our possessions limit us, and losing them can be liberating. The energy once focused on the material becomes available for higher purpose.

Buddhist teacher Pema Chodron teaches that life is constant change and there’s nothing we can cling to for long. We hold onto our things because they offer a sense of permanency. Of course, this goes way beyond the material. We cling to people, experiences, emotions and places. We want something and we try to keep it for our own, but this creates imbalance. Attachment takes us outside of self fulfillment and we become dependent upon things that can never provide what we seek. When we detach, we free ourselves from the cage we have made.

And yet, how do we love something on earth without wanting a part of it for ourselves? I can’t imagine a full experience of life without attachment. I think it is the wanting and releasing that teach us so much. We literally rise above the past and all of our experiences, and we are stronger.

I feel such overwhelming gratitude for my loved ones and beloved pets who have taught me these lessons – who have shown me the spiritual in life through letting go. Love will always survive our desires.

The ring that carried such nostalgia has no meaning to me now. But, what does remain and shine out exponentially is the incredible love for my parents and the self-respect that was symbolized. Love will always transcend our attachments.

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Bootcamp Earth

It’s often said that life is hard, and I believe it’s designed to be this way. I think life supposed to be difficult so that our souls can truly evolve. You see, we are forever striving for our divine potential, and this is best achieved through human lessons. That is why we come to this challenging place.

Recently, I have come to look at life as enlistment at Bootcamp Earth – where the most brutal training grounds exist with the toughest courses available. Here, we embody personal traits that are at odds with each other, and these push us from day to day. Our lessons are built in, and we can’t ignore them.

We constantly make mistakes here, which can bring an underlying belief that we’re not doing things right, but we are supposed to get life all wrong because this is how we grow. Our muddy challenges act as a constant teaching mechanism, frustrating us continually, until we see that the only solution is to grow rather than to struggle. Every difficult moment is here for us to learn.

Each one of us is incredibly brave for signing up for this bootcamp – for planning difficult lives. You see, the human experience is so different from the blissful place we come from. And we feel the loss of our true home, making life all the more tough. When we come here, we are accompanied by just a few people from our spiritual core group, so we often feel like we don’t belong or aren’t truly loved. But, we are able to really test ourselves in this land of negativity, and to gain experience of the full scope of creation.

The truth is that our souls yearn to grow, and to reach higher towards God. And so we find ourselves again at Bootcamp Earth.

If I’m to be completely honest, I will say that I’m upset about the endless suffering I see at this bootcamp. Of course, I can’t begin to fathom God’s all-encompassing love and scope, and I feel gratitude for my many blessings. But, I will share that I don’t understand the incessant violence of our rough world, especially considering pre-birth amnesia, the ignorance of youth, and dark systems of control. In my own limiting amnesia, I find myself asking: “Why are the atrocities here allowed to perpetuate?” Even the goals that we are each born with get obscured by extreme duality – by imbalance and heartbreaking circumstances, and in my own heart I see the possibility of learning through more positive means.

Doreen Virtue tells us that, “peace leads to even bigger growth spurts.” Orin and Sanaya Roman write, “You do not have to go through pain and struggle to grow.” I consider how children flourish when treated with love and a positive environment. Might this also apply to seasoned spirits? Can we make this training ground more like the loving place we come from, and start by granting awareness?

I have been told that in the future, safeguards will be put in place to prevent the kind suffering that has unfolded here. I think this might be what earth ascension is all about, and I believe that we are getting unprecedented help from above to make it happen.

For now, I will champion positivity, while also embracing duality. I will reach spiritually higher and end the violence in myself. I will cease my reactive anger and judgment.

For now, I will find the greater purpose behind my challenges and look at everyone as fellow students on the path. If life is supposed to be hard for good reason, then everything makes more sense, and I am learning to appreciate this giant opportunity rather than fight against it. Considering all that we go through, I think it’s vital to be very kind to each other and to enjoy what’s possible in this temporal play. Amidst our eternal progress, life can be a gift of human connection, moving beauty and spiritual growth. And so, I remain inspired to stop and smell the precious roses of this our Bootcamp Earth.

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Share

Thank you dear friends for listening and sharing here. This post is devoted to you – for you to express your spiritual truth and say what you think about existence. Please share your thoughts by adding comments, and check back to see what transpires. I can’t wait to listen and learn from you.

Here’s to freely sharing how we see life.

LOVE,

Suzy

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Power II

Many of us ask, “If God is the most powerful, then why do bad things happen?” I believe that we are deeply and intrinsically connected to God while on earth, and are sacred expressions of God, but we are the ones directly living the details of life. I think it’s in our power to make this a great experience or a miserable one.

Of course, bad things do happen – awful and painful things, such as life-altering illnesses. But I feel that, with awareness and love, we have the power to grow through these experiences.

I have often blamed God for the hardship I see in the world, and for how tremendously challenging it is to be a human being. But looking at the big picture helps me to recognize my spiritual part in the play of life. I now realize I have a far greater role than I thought, and an inherent connection to God’s love. I remember that we are here to evolve and to bloom into our power that lets us thrive instead of suffer.

I believe that my obstacles are here to teach me. I have found that when I fully love others and myself, I create a joyful reality. I grow from the lessons I wanted to come here to learn.

Powerlessness is thinking that we don’t affect the world – that what we do doesn’t matter, but it turns out that it does. I think we have a lot of control, but we’ve simply been asleep at the wheel. Waking up to this realization can be dramatic. We might feel unprepared, much like a child instantly becoming an adult, but accepting the truth brings miraculous transformation.

Instead of taking control through the ego, or giving our power away to other people’s egos (often unknowingly) we can reclaim our magnificent spiritual power. We do create our lives at a deeper level, with our choices and beliefs, and we can do so consciously. We can grow rapidly and beautifully by flourishing rather than struggling, something so important in these changing times. It is our responsibility to work on our issues by adding more love, no matter how hard that might seem from our old perspective. We get to replace the survival mode of the mind with the endless dreams of our soul.

If you are searching for your power, how can you find it? All you have to do is ask. Power begins with the desire to own it. You are naturally powerful and already intuitive – you need only believe in yourself and trust your inner guidance.

Power reveals itself when we make our spiritual growth a priority – a joyous one that we feel drawn to as it magically unfolds. And, by removing the limiting illusions we have relied upon, such as authoritative rules, we can free the fears that take our power away. As James Barrett says, your energy is your power. So don’t give it to those who make you feel small. Live with compassion, but focus on what really matters to you that lifts everyone up. Know that just by being in your power, you illuminate all of us. Together in our power, we can transform humanity. We can live with love, which is the greatest power of all. I think striving to look upon the world with love every day, and being present, are the secrets to creating a beautiful life.

What else can you do? Love your human-ness as well as your spirit; love every part of yourself, and believe that you are worthy of every great dream you have, because you emphatically are! As an exercise, you can passionately state, “I accept and embrace my power. I am a co-creator of life. I am powerful.”

Be commanding of the positive things you want, instead of misguided ventures like trying to change people or proving yourself. You don’t have to prove a thing.

Power is your birthright. Dr. Meg Blackburn Losey writes, “Accept your power. You are great and mighty. True power comes not from the ego, but from the collective One of your spirit, your very being. True power is gentle power… Embrace the power of your spirit, of living intentionally as the co-creator of everything that you seek.” I am reminded of the biblical idea that the meek shall inherit the earth. I think this refers to our gentle power. And I believe it can change our world into a paradise.


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Power

Power. I used to wince at this word when I came across it in spiritual books. It felt like the opposite of what I was seeking, conjuring up images of domination and greed. But the empowerment of the spiritual world is a gentle, benevolent mastery we have always had. It is our eternal, creative power that is an essential part of the universe.

So many of us have never been told that we are powerful. We have been taught the opposite instead. We have been told that we are limited and in need of being controlled by a higher authority – even by God. But, we are each a very special and direct aspect of God. And I feel that we’re all going to be rediscovering our spiritual power.

We have a gentle and omniscient power from within that is compassionate, wise, and free. It is loving beyond the imagination, and has a strong desire to help others. This is who we really are at the spiritual core. Enlightenment is rediscovering this natural power, and when we remember it (for that is what it is, a remembering) we can take responsibility and transform the human experience.

These changing times that we are living in are all about becoming self sustaining. They are about becoming stronger instead of relying on others for what they will never be able to provide – such as inner happiness. This is why the spiritual journey is, in essence, a discovery of the self. That is why it is about finding your own power that has always been within you.

Right now, we humans are slowly waking up from a deep sleep of conditioned beliefs. We are realizing that we’re not unworthy and hopelessly flawed, but just the opposite. We are realizing that we’ve been purposefully dumbed down. It begins early in life, when people tell us – “You don’t know anything, you have to prove yourself (with your ego) in this world, and look at all that you’ve done wrong.” We carry this background noise of judgment into adulthood. The old systems around us reinforce this, as does our modern disconnect from nature.

The unhealthy power that our egos strive for was born out of survival and spiritual forgetfulness, and this has harmed our world, but it has never been our true identity. Now, we can begin to reclaim our spiritual power by no longer defining ourselves with limitation. If you don’t already know it, dear friend, you are limitless. You are an incredible, direct spark of God, and you have immense power to lovingly co-create life.

Recently, I felt my power, and here’s what I experienced. I felt a pure feeling rather than a vision – a deep and natural all-knowing within my whole self, not my left brain. The familiar confining layers of life opened up, and suddenly I knew the wide expanse of existence. And all that I knew was incredible joy.

This feeling was so benevolent, easy, and euphoric. It filled me with the belief that anything is possible. I realized that I’m not separate from anything, and at the same time, I laughed at how overwhelmingly free I really am. I knew with certainty that I am a compassionate co-creator at heart, just as you are too. This feeling lingers with me, and I will never be the same.

I believe that this feeling is who we really are. We don’t have to live under the control of others and be at their mercy, or go along with agendas that harm our world. We can powerfully lead the creation of a loving environment, and it starts with accepting that we are each worthy of fulfilling our dreams – the earnest yearnings within our hearts. We are spiritually powerful, but have simply forgotten amidst the amnesia of life. For what you seek has always been within you on this long journey home.

I think power is such a vital topic that I’ll be writing more about it next time. And, if you’re searching for your power, I’ll be offering some ideas on how to find it. Please share your wise voice with me, and stay tuned.

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Poem

Breathe Boldly

 

Existence spells its spell

on this mild, wild April night;

I see Spring’s thrilling skill

and her breath upon all life.

She readies for the dance

in her new-found gown of green;

she conducts this pulsing Eden,

and the insect band then sings.

Each voice chirps its sage song,

each dancing thing alights,

and haunting stars form chandeliers

that paint the dream of light.

The warm wind rushes, and stays,

embracing us with a sigh,

holding the pale bell notes

of this primal lullaby.

What elaborate expression of consciousness!

What romantic, bare melody enraptures us.

Who you are and all that is are one and the same,

and feeling separate is but a ghost of the mind.

I breathe,

and the stars flicker back in time,

echoed by the brash cricket’s chime.

We are breathing

together.

We are flickering,

humming,

chiming,

singing,

and building

in rhythm,

and then I know God’s wish

for all within the dark,

“Breathe boldly, bright soul!

Share your precious music with the stars.”

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Beauty

“Beauty is the language of the divine,” writes Cheryl Richardson. It is a glorious expression of God. Beauty resides in a high, enlightened frequency that our soul knows so well. Because we come from a place of immense beauty.

Throughout my day, I try to focus on beauty whenever possible. I try to surround myself with it all the time. I go to Nature and smell the cool spring rain. I feel the warmth of golden sunlight on my skin. I share a beautiful conversation with someone.

Beauty resonates in my heart as truth. To me, it feels like home. I find beauty in the wide eyes of children, in the soft blush of pale roses, and in the ever-changing clouds of March. I live to be moved by beauty. I feel it when I see the moon and stars shining through the trees, when I listen to music that brings tears to my eyes, and when I hear the primal sound of the ocean. I marvel at the beauty humanity has created. And beauty is most poetic and profound in the earnest people around me.

Beauty is everywhere. To me, it is the harmonious embodiment of our light. Everything has this potential, and recognizing beauty helps us to recognize ourselves. It illuminates us and elevates our being. Noticing beauty is something that may not be valued in our modern world, but it is a divine and important practice. For when we notice beauty, we begin to live joyfully in the present moment. And when we appreciate beauty, we bring more into our lives.

Today, and every day, let us simply be in the company of beauty, and let it feed our souls.

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Light

On last week’s post, we delved into our collective and individual shadows. I talked about how I believe we’ve been taught to control each other in little and big ways. Shadow is an integral part of the human experience. The level of creation that we live in requires shadow or dark as well as light, in order to manifest. But now, we are moving towards needing only a small amount of dark to balance the light.

I am learning that awareness of our dark side is vital for spiritual growth. It allows us to see the whole truth that we have to heal. By experiencing forgiveness and unconditional love, we are set free.

It is reassuring to know that the positive and light side of our world is far more powerful than the negative (phew!). Indeed, shadow has no source, and negativity can only be attached and generated within positive souls. Our shadows are secret this way, whereas our light side is open and free.

As we know, light is the expansive, limitless and blissful fabric of our universe. It originates from God – our universal source of all consciousness, and manifests out of source energy. This light is what we ourselves are made of. It is gloriously loving beyond imagination and description, with a love more powerful, immense and overwhelming than possible to convey! Indeed, just as with God, it is brighter and more benevolent than conceivable.

Light, Love, and Sound are manifestations of God. Light is awareness energy, love is creative energy, and sound is the vibration of life. This is what our very souls are.

On earth, Light is said to be the masculine reflection of God-force, and Love, the feminine. I like this explanation because it demonstrates omniscient balance.

Light manifests on earth in many different forms with various qualities, including our sun and sunlight. Everything that we experience is essentially vibrating light, and in some ways, life is simply learning how to master the denser manifestations of this refracted light or “matter.”

Light and Love are of a very high vibration, and if we raise our own vibrations, we become powerful co-creators again. We experience the joy of living.

As we’re all learning, one of the most vital things we can do is to focus our energy on the light side of our world, and the light within ourselves. By doing so, we strengthen it for all of us down here, and it builds. I personally feel we have a responsibility to do this.

Our understanding of light is intuitive and natural, just as love is. Light can be envisioned as a brilliant, white and golden light, and it can be used to heal. Light is powerfully restorative. Medium Sanaya Roman writes “Light is a living consciousness that responds instantly to your call. You can send light to your ideas, the future, your higher purpose, your body, thoughts and feelings.”

You can envision standing under a waterfall of sparkling light, and this will “transform everything around you into a higher vibration.” You can send light from your heart to the hearts of those you love, to help create harmonious relationships. These are all forms of meditation that begin by asking or calling Light. Having a white candle in front of you can be a meaningful and poetic way to begin these exercises. I’ve also learned a specific meditation that gathers a cocoon of light all around you, thereby raising your vibration. I like to think of the butterfly analogy again, where we are set free from our human cocoons. Best of all, I’ve found that light meditation is very easy to do (and as you know, easy and meditation are rarely used in the same sentence!).

If you meditate on Light and envision powerful Love in your heart at the same time, then you will unite these two incredible forces! Send this light to your fears, and let it help you to let go of judgments, and to forgive those who have harmed you (including forgiving yourself.). In doing so, you may experience unconditional love that opens your heart. To me, this is one of the goals of life.

The light side of our world is strengthening every day now, and more and more light is being sent to us. There is actually an energy field above our earth that is separating us into two realities. Dr. Doreen Virtue writes: “we have the choice of living below this energy field or above it. You live below it by becoming fearful about the news stories of the earth changes. You live above the energy field by taking healthy action and staying centered in love.”

Spiritual Teacher Maureen St. Germain tells us that this energy field is a 5th dimensional grid of light. It came from our Ascended Masters who “built” it into our future, so that it would be secure. This is how we will succeed in transforming our earth and ourselves.

You can look for this grid in the night sky, while away from artificial light. It is endowed with Christ Consciousness, the tremendously compassionate love that, I believe, Jesus was able to embody even while human.

Every action that we make in unconditional love is of the 5th dimension and resonates with this grid, helping to anchor the light. When you act with unconditional love, you also help raise yourself into a higher, safe existence, something that I feel we should all be working on. Imagine how, with the benevolent help of this grid, we will create a glorious and positive reality! I think it is slowly, but assuredly working.

 

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