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May 15, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

Why are we all rushing around at a fever pitch these days? I am losing hours I used to have, and I know that you don’t have time to read this post! What is going on, and what is time anyway? Here are my thoughts that begin with a personal story.

When I was a child, I was haunted by the concept of eternity. I was consumed by the idea that time would go on and on, without an end in sight. This thinking terrified me late at night for many years. Not until early adulthood did I realize that time as we’ve been taught to know it is an artificial measurement. Finally, my fears were erased.

You see, I had been scared by an idea because it’s very nature was fake. No wonder I’d been afraid. The truth is that we’ve been brought up to make clocks run our lives. Most of us only know this way of living, and think about it – is there any more dominating authority? But I believe that time is an artificial system – a left brain creation that has been imposed upon us. And get this, we don’t need it.

Heaven helps to explain this. In her extraordinary book, With Love & Light, medium Jamie Butler calls the blissful place that our souls come from “Home.” And she explains that “time is a man-made element and Home is a timeless place.” We have no mental grasp of just how vast, joyful, and limitless the world we come from is, and how free it is from the limits of time.

To lose time’s control over us is liberating. Mayan elder Carlos Barrios writes that we must seize a better life now by “slowing down and spending more time playing with our children instead of rushing headlong to nowhere. ” I think that we are meant to experience life as children do, or Nature and the animals, who live in the present moment. They follow natural cycles instead of being slaves to measurement.

Our indigenous cultures have been trying to tell us that this is how we find peace and freedom. The Mayan Calendar is a far more harmoniously accurate record to live by than our uniform hours, days, and years that have no relation to Nature. It is time to get back to nature and shed the shackles of time.

But time is appearing to speed up right now, and it’s all part of humanity’s accelerating evolution. We are in the midst of a great shift, and so we are perceiving fewer “hours” in the day. Things will keep appearing to race forward like a corkscrew spiral, so hang on – it’s going to get worse! But, there is a giant, positive reason why all of this is happening.

We need to finally let go of what doesn’t serve us and live in the present moment. The ridiculous pace that we’re experiencing is screaming at us to put the silliness down and find what truly has meaning in our lives. It’s like the universe is telling us to get off this crazy ride and be who you really are. At some level I think we all know this, as more and more meaningless details are piled onto our plates every day, many of them by our own technology. So finally, we are being forced to find what really matters for each of us.

Time as we’ve known it is changing. We are experiencing things like the higher dimensions, which are fluid and intuitive rather than linear and sequential. Things are becoming spiraling and multi-dimensional. This is helping us to let go of our limiting conditioning.

So now I’m looking at these rapid times as a great tool to help me evolve – to sort out what I truly care about and live it. I guess at the end of the day, like others, I’ve had to march to the beat of my own drum, and that’s something that feels very right, albeit a little lonely for now. Not that I’m immune to the rapid pace lately, and not that I don’t still check what time it is to do my job each day, but life is feeling quite magical. And so, I am trying to ignore the clock and follow the natural rhythms of the body, of nature and the stars. And I want to follow my new definition for living, and that is that experience is simply, and perfectly, blossoming moments of creation.

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Nurture

May 8, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

Nurturing one another seems like the most important thing that we can do throughout our days, because frankly, living is hard. As Mary Lane artfully puts it, this is one “outrageous ride” down here in the trenches of life. It is a long journey to rediscover the magic hidden within our experience. Again and again, I am reminded how crucial it is to help each other bloom through it all.

And I am inspired by how much I see people tending to others. It is beautiful to see the ways that we support each other and offer protection, and the ways that we encourage unique beauty to thrive. For myself, I am trying to tread more softly with generous love, instead of trampling with my judgments. It is up to me to make life a garden rather than a battlefield.

And life shows me the way. To need each other and be needed are the transformative challenges of being human. They carry forward our evolution – showing us the sanctity of being here. They show us the connection of souls, fulfilling us from within.

The design of life is to be born completely vulnerable and dependent upon others, so that we must participate in the grand exchange of love. As a mother, I am often overwhelmed by the duty of nurturing, only to be transformed by the whole experience. There is an honor in being the one to provide what another needs, and to feel sacred love returned in whatever form it takes. Life is meant to be shared, and it shines when we do so with love.

Behind all nurturing lies the limitless and healing power of love. It is harnessed through heart and hands that offer compassion – that demonstrate reverence of a holy nature. There is I think an ultimate nurturing when we care for a complete stranger – when we step outside of our small circle of loved ones, and to me this is grace itself. I am reminded of Mother Teresa, who rolled up her sleeves to shelter those in need, inspiring the world and showing us what really matters. I think she was shocked by the suffering we allow our fellow humans to endure, and her bright life taught how incredibly important it is to take care of everyone.

Far too often in our personal lives as well, the heart-wrenching opposite of nurturing takes place, but I am starting to believe that we are each meant to experience resurrection from our past, our wounds, and our sorrows. Behind all negativity lies the positive, and I am relieved to know that one positive action can outshine the negative exponentially.

We often forget to nurture ourselves – to take the time and energy to replenish from within so that we can help others. Nourish yourself beyond what the world often feeds you, and see your extraordinary, unique beauty. Care for yourself lovingly, especially when you are feeling down, and be open to receive the gift of nourishment from another.

You are not alone. We are not alone, and we are each a brilliant light to revere and see in each other. I have found that our modern world can box us in, treating us as separate consumers. We are closeted indoors and made to follow, but I know that we are magnificent life-force itself. Own this in yourself. You are so incredibly special – you are an integral, essential part of our experience, and of the wide universe, and it is your birthright to always be nurtured.

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Poem

May 1, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

Breathe Boldly

 

Existence spells its spell

on this mild, wild April night;

I see Spring’s thrilling skill

and her breath upon all life.

She readies for the dance

in her new-found gown of green;

she conducts this pulsing Eden,

and the insect band then sings.

Each voice chirps its sage song,

each dancing thing alights,

and haunting stars form chandeliers

that paint the dream of light.

The warm wind rushes, and stays,

embracing us with a sigh,

holding the pale bell notes

of this primal lullaby.

What elaborate expression of consciousness!

What romantic, bare melody enraptures us.

Who you are and all that is are one and the same,

and feeling separate is but a ghost of the mind.

I breathe,

and the stars flicker back in time,

echoed by the brash cricket’s chime.

We are breathing

together.

We are flickering,

humming,

chiming,

singing,

and building

in rhythm,

and then I know God’s wish

for all within the dark,

“Breathe boldly, bright soul!

Share your precious music with the stars.”

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Compassion

April 24, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

Sometimes I think that life is just one giant lesson in compassion. It seems to me that we’re continually given very challenging opportunities to choose this higher route amidst overwhelming difficulties. This spurs our spiritual growth.

Compassion is the opposite of pity, and it isn’t even empathy. It is trying to feel on a completely equal level what another is going through. Compassion recognizes that we all struggle and wants to ease our suffering. Compassion knows that we are all connected, ultimately, with unconditional love.

We hear these two words a lot, but what exactly does unconditional love mean? I think it is loving and accepting everyone, including ourselves, exactly as we are. It is loving without expectations, competition, or judgment. It is viewing humanity from a higher perspective that sees the big picture – that sees the connection of God within each of us. Unconditional love looks upon each person as though they are our own children.

With unconditional love, the critical eye is replaced by a loving one. And this love is not something we have to earn. We deserve it, and our souls naturally operate this way. They remember this love from before we become conditioned by the human experience.

So often in life, compassion and unconditional love are the missing ingredients. But how do we realistically practice them?

Perhaps we can start by remembering that every day is an opportunity to step into another’s shoes and feel their struggle. It is a chance to ask, “How can I help this person and give more love in this situation, in a higher way that values both of us?” The growth and fulfillment that follow are miraculous.

For myself, I try to embrace my emotions that care deeply – that don’t want to look the other way or be distracted by my ego. I try to remove any superiority that might be lurking in my personality, and I work on forgiveness by letting go. I try (try!) to put judgment aside, and interestingly enough, when I stop judging myself, I stop judging others.

You see, when we quit the blame game and put an end to comparing, we start appreciating how uniquely beautiful each person is.

One exercise that can help us to feel compassion is to envision an angel’s loving arms around those who’ve upset us. When I picture the person I’m at odds with being embraced by a higher love, the anger melts away, and I see our common humanity.

The definition of relent is to relax severity and yield to compassion. We need not be so serious and demanding with each other down here, myself included. After this past emotional winter, where I feel so many of us have been working through our unresolved issues, I’ve been experiencing some sudden, natural compassion. It feels light and effortless, like much of the judgment and heaviness is gone. I’m feeling a lot of gratitude for everyone, and embracing all of our quirks, faults and darkness with loving acceptance. Now it seems so simple – we just have to help each other as we work through our personal journeys, our sensitivities, and inherited legacies. These voyages require patience and love.

One ancient and deeply moving story that captures this for me is the biblical passage of Jesus washing his disciples feet. It is full of heart wrenching symbolism that speaks to love, forgiveness, and faith. My dear twin sister tells me it’s about teaching us to lovingly, humbly serve one another, without superiority or squabbling. He is showing us the holiness in taking care of each other, before that ultimate, indescribable suffering and transcendence.

There is a beautiful Mayan expression “In Lak Ech,” or “I am another you.” We are each other, and I am striving to feel towards every person I meet. I am striving to say: “I believe in the beauty and the excellence of you, despite our differences – despite the illusion of separation that limits us.” I think limitation is our biggest obstacle, and our evolution depends upon widening our view to how limitless, benevolent, and connected we are at the core. Compassion is already within us, ready to be remembered.

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Earth

April 17, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

To me, Nature is the key to the spiritual. I feel a deeper connection to my soul just by spending time outside. In nature, I remember what it is like to be present. I regain the lighthearted joy of childhood and feel unconditional acceptance. It is as though each green leaf tells me that I am an integral part of creation.

Our planet sustains the natural beauty that we experience and our very selves. It does so with a life-force from its core. Indeed, our Earth is alive and embodies ancient wisdom that most of us have lost. Because we have spiritually, collectively fallen asleep.

Indigenous cultures call our planet “Mother Earth,” and they communicate with her in the most magical of ways. Earth is their personal guide as they tap into the miracles of the universe. They enjoy incredible, benevolent power that we can only begin to imagine. We are also meant to know this inherent power and this relationship, and our world opens up when we rediscover them.

We must thank our Earth for all that she gives us instead of taking her for granted. I have learned a simple yet powerful meditation that you can do outside. You begin by connecting to Mother Earth. Visualize your “roots” going far down into the ground, and then send Mother Earth your love. After a little while you will feel her love in return, and it is powerfully moving. You may even receive some comforting advice.

Another simple exercise is to walk outside and say the following, one syllable for every step on the ground: “Thank you Mother Earth.” I say these words with gratitude in my heart, and then I feel a strong connection to all life. This has forever changed me. You see, when we feel love for our Earth, we can receive her love in return. This incredible experience inspires us to finally protect our collective home.

Mayan teacher Shonagh Home encourages us to do so one neighborhood at a time by eliminating dangerous chemicals and practicing organic living. We can make a cumulative difference and spread the word as we spiritually awaken. Protecting our earth is something that England’s Prince Charles also champions in his extraordinary book “Harmony.” And, while I’m not a fan of royal hierarchy, I think this work is truly a gift. It is spiritually minded, with a perspective on the environment that I find enlightening. To quote from Harmony: “The dominant world view only accepts as fact what it sees in material terms. We have come to function with a one-sided, materialistic approach that is defined not by its inclusiveness, but by its dismissal of those things that cannot be measured in material terms. Our predominantly mechanistic way of looking at the world has excluded our spiritual relationship with Nature.”

In essence, we have dismissed Nature. Harmony implores us to emulate Nature’s perfect and balanced cycles, so we can begin to restore the damage we have done to our earth, and to ourselves.

It’s encouraging to see the grass roots movement taking shape, inspiring us to live in more healthy and conscientious ways. It’s also heartening to know that we are finding incredible new technology to help with this endeavor. For example, as unbelievable as it might sound, we can rapidly reverse air pollution by creating waveform fields that transform molecules, something that’s already been tried successfully in major cities such as Denver. Spiritual teacher Drunvalo Melchizedek has been collaborating with scientists on this exciting project that will enable us to clean up our entire planet in a relatively short amount of time. To me, this restores hope and makes me want to roll up my sleeves instead of throwing in the towel (unthinkable!). There really are no limits to what we can do, and we can start by establishing a relationship with our Earth.

And it begins by simply saying ” Thank you.”

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Gut

April 10, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

I believe that our most basic intuition is our gut, and I think it holds invaluable wisdom. I am trying to listen to my gut more often by being aware of how situations, people and places make me feel. When I start to feel uneasy, negative, or defensive, I know that something is unhealthy. This signals me to stop giving my energy here. I then refocus on the things that make me feel joyful, positive, and valued.

I love that we all have this built in barometer to navigate our way through life. And I also love that it’s based on feeling and being, rather than thinking in words. The gut warns us to avoid negative energy, or reminds us that we’re not on the right track and to change direction. We can listen to these warnings without judging the negativity that we sense, but instead simply identify it and become aware.

Feeling uneasy means that we don’t feel free, and that we need to detach from negativity, whether we’re holding on to it or whether it’s simply in the room. Ultimately, we are the ones who trap ourselves through attachment, and we have the power to set ourselves free.

For me, if uneasy feelings linger, I try to be completely honest with myself about why. If a person or situation is devaluing me, I need to walk away, but if I’m hooked into my own stubborn emotions, I look for my hidden shadow. I try to find what I’m attached to, whether it’s an outcome I’m expecting, or another’s opinion, or a goal for my ego. This attachment is not healthy, and it’s important that I not make excuses for it. Excuses trap us, whereas honesty frees us.

For example, I have found that when I share with a friend why I really, deep down don’t want to do something, instead of giving the answer that might make me look good, then we both experience an opening of the heart. Understanding blooms on both sides. And if I find myself focusing on negativity, I work on letting it go in myself, and this often involves forgiveness, compassion and love.

Severing negative attachment can be challenging and can take time, but ultimately it brings a feeling of liberation that is transformative. The most healing way that I’ve found to resolve my attachment is to share truthfully from the heart – to express fully what I am feeling and to see it from a new compassionate perspective.

Looking back on life, I see that the warnings are always there. If we heed them at the first sign, we can save ourselves and others a lot of suffering. You can check in with yourself regularly, and simply ask – how is this making me feel? Don’t give your beautiful energy to anyone or anything that makes you feel less than you are. Don’t harbor those who operate against you. Seek out healthy places, people and situations that support you in extremely positive ways. You deserve to feel harmonious and valued as you’re meant to. You deserve to be free, joyous and light, always.

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Grow

April 3, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

How many of us have found ourselves riding a tumultuous roller-coaster of emotions this past year? I know that I have, and here’s what many of us believe is happening.

More and more, we are being made to acknowledge the truth of our issues and let them go. This is so that we can move forward in our spiritual evolution. And so, we are rapidly facing pain that has been lurking in the shadows. We are having to release this pain with love.

Pain is created by false beliefs, and we are here to shift them. In order to do so, we must be completely honest with ourselves. We must realize that our issues are reflected in the people around us. And it is time for us to own them. It is time to stop judging and blaming the reflections, and look at ourselves instead.

For example, if we list the emotions that have been ignited by another person, we might see a life pattern of our own that needs resolving. It’s not about being right or wrong, but rather acknowledging being human. It is about embracing the truth that duality lies behind everything.

Duality is a rapid teacher, and that is why we are here. And it’s so encouraging to know that when we clear our personal issues, we are also helping to clean up the world. Spiritual teacher Mary Lane shares, “We are going through a collective cleanse of negative energy, that will keep us from moving into the higher frequency, that is necessary for the transition into a more life-affirming existence in our world. We are being asked to embrace our true nature. We are being asked to let go of old wounding that keeps us hooked into our anger and victim mentality.”

The old is dying and the new is being born. As the truth comes out, we may be grappling with uncontrollable emotions, such as frustration, anger, and resentment. We may feel depression as well as exhaustion, due to this tremendous growth spurt. We are experiencing some emotions collectively too, such as pain around how women have historically been treated. It is all coming out so that we can process it, release it with love, and grow.

In this way, the difficult situations that we are being presented with are gifts in disguise. At last, our life long issues get to be resolved! And we can help each other through them by compassionately sharing, heart to heart, what we are going through, instead of pointing the finger. We must be easy on each other and ourselves.

I am learning how to do this. I have been struggling to resolve my relentless issues that leave me feeling very alone, but then I’m reminded that separation is just a left brain perception. I am trying to forgive myself and others, while asking for help from above. And I’m even thanking difficult situations for teaching me. What helps most is when I fully feel the emotions that are buried within me and then breathe them out of my body. I combine this with heart centered meditations that are tremendously renewing. When I feel love in my heart for everyone, including myself, then I am free.

In his passionate post “River of Love,” Father Richard Rohr writes, “all of us are much larger than the good or bad stories we tell about ourselves. Please don’t get caught in just “my” story, my hurts, my agenda. It’s too small. It’s not the whole You, the Great You. It’s not the great river. It is part of a much larger stream called God. The river of love is flowing; we are in it.”

This is what we are learning. We are learning to detach from unhealthy ties that bind – from expectations and judgment, from fears and ego identity, so that we can live with unconditional love. When we feel tremendous empathy for each other and compassion for the human experience, everything else melts away – all the arguments and negative dialogues. Love outshines all that came before, and we begin to see ourselves in every person. And yet, we also get to stand strong in who we uniquely are, free from old definitions. This readies us to help our world.

Be very kind and patient with yourself through all of this new growth. Nurture and love yourself, and listen to what your needs are – rest, healthy food, and a positive environment. Remember that you are not alone, and that we are all going through this. Best of all, we can work with the renewing energy of spring to let go, and to courageously grow.

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Beauty

March 27, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

“Beauty is the language of the divine,” writes Cheryl Richardson. It is a glorious expression of God. Beauty resides in a high, enlightened frequency that our soul knows so well. Because we come from a place of immense beauty.

Throughout my day, I try to focus on beauty whenever possible. I try to surround myself with it all the time. I go to Nature and smell the cool spring rain. I feel the warmth of golden sunlight on my skin. I share a beautiful conversation with someone.

Beauty resonates in my heart as truth. To me, it feels like home. I find beauty in the wide eyes of children, in the soft blush of pale roses, and in the ever-changing clouds of March. I live to be moved by beauty. I feel it when I see the moon and stars shining through the trees, when I listen to music that brings tears to my eyes, and when I hear the primal sound of the ocean. I marvel at the beauty humanity has created. And beauty is most poetic and profound in the earnest people around me.

Beauty is everywhere. To me, it is the harmonious embodiment of our light. Everything has this potential, and recognizing beauty helps us to recognize ourselves. It illuminates us and elevates our being. Noticing beauty is something that may not be valued in our modern world, but it is a divine and important practice. For when we notice beauty, we begin to live joyfully in the present moment. And when we appreciate beauty, we bring more into our lives.

Today, and every day, let us simply be in the company of beauty, and let it feed our souls.

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Transition

March 21, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

I’d like to share what I believe about the changes that we are witnessing in our world. Our spiritual evolution is accelerating. We are experiencing related global changes that are all about outgrowing our past. You see, spiritual awareness and the physical world are joining together, and the goal is to successfully combine the two.

As we make this transition, fear can pull us down to a lower frequency. It can cause us to resist growth. But love always rises above fear. It allow us to evolve as we need to.

The heartbreak that we feel for our fellow humans who are suffering is so palpable right now, and it demonstrates the love that connects us. Focus on this love instead of fear, for it will transform us. You see, love is the only lasting reality. And the truth is that we actually co-create our reality, and we’re going to be learning how to do this more and more.

We are waking up from a collective sleep of unknowing. We are moving closer to the eternal and blissful awareness that we come from. And although, we are responsible for our actions as they play out, rest assured that we are receiving unprecedented help from above.

Humanity is growing towards living far more harmoniously than we ever have before. And this transition has already begun. I am optimistic that it will be very intuitive for us, and I am hopeful that this will be a very gradual process.

Our collective human journey is coming to fruition, and I think we’re going to be learning how to help each other through this in the most beautiful and meaningful ways. In fact, we each have a vital role to play in our awakening.

Transition can mean growing pains, and as our systems transition, there may be interruptions in the services we are used to. So we just need to plan ahead a little. This means simply stocking up on what we might need for a few weeks time, just in case. We often hear about having a kit of supplies for an emergency, and it’s so easy to have extra basic necessities, water and food around to share with others, that help us to be empowered. I know thinking about this can make us feel uneasy, but it’s simply about becoming more self sustaining as a civilization and helping each other.

We are collectively moving in this direction, and we really don’t need much in order to thrive.  Think about the ways that you can become more self sustaining for yourself, your loved ones and your neighbors, as so many of you are already doing.

As we witness and experience change, it is vital to avoid what is negative, heavy and fearful, and to embrace what is positive, light and loving. Each one of us can work on feeling positive visions of our future, because we literally create what we focus on in our hearts. Each one of us can “hold the light” by being positive, thereby helping all of us to ascend.

Preparing for transition means detaching from the things we don’t really need. It means letting go of our hold on material possessions, our fears, and ways of the past. That’s not to say that we can’t have plenty of beauty and pleasures of life, peace, and of course, joy. In fact, these will be far more plentiful in our future.

If we all follow our individual spiritual paths and go with the flow instead of resisting change, we will transition as smoothly as possible. Listen to what your personal journey is teaching you. Ask yourself, what do I truthfully want? Get to a level of complete freedom and honesty with yourself and ask, if the rules of every day were to go away, what do I want for myself? I think the answer might be exactly where we’re headed. And I can tell you that I believe with all my soul that it’s going to be transformational.

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Self

March 12, 2011 by Suzanne M. Baker

This post is on the often overlooked importance of self-love. Of course, focusing on the self can appear selfish, but it is the key to spiritual growth.

You see, we originally come from the same incredibly loving place, where we are united as one blissful energy. Because of this inherent unity, when we value the self, we are valuing others. If we can be more accepting, compassionate and kind to ourselves, then we know how to be this way to each other.

Going through the self is the way to truth. Every issue we have is here. Self-awareness prevents unnecessary fears that blame other people for our problems. It also helps us to have a caring awareness of those around us. When we nurture ourselves, we see this healthiness reflected in our relationships.

Orin and Sanaya Roman write, “What is loving to the self is always loving to others. Transformation of the planet begins with transformation of the self.” If we start on the inside, we can change the world.

Here is an exercise by teacher Maureen St. Germain that fortifies the self. It generates more love from within.

1. Start by writing down the loving statements that you’ve heard people say about you in your life. Take a little time to remember and list them, starting with your closest family, then present and past friends.

2. Next, call your cell phone and record these words with great tenderness and feeling, beginning with “I love you.”

3. Listen to this voice message twice a day for 45 days, re-recording your message as you remember more and can add more feeling. I have found that you can also record a message purely in your own words to yourself, when self-compassion is evident, to listen to as needed.

I know that it sounds so narcissistic, but this exercise helps to create a solid foundation of love from which to live. It makes us centered and whole, and able to contribute our strongest gifts to the world – what every person deserves.

When I began this exercise, I immediately realized “I just have to love myself better. It has nothing to do with anybody else.” I felt my heart open. When we open our hearts to loving ourselves one hundred percent, we can support and forgive ourselves, which is at the root of all healing. And, when our hearts are opened, we can fully love others. It then becomes obvious that self-love is essential. When everyone sees how special they are, and we can throw our outdated egos out and live harmonious lives.

Another way to strengthen self-love is to create a positive, supportive inner dialogue, to replace the one that judges our unique qualities. We often reject ourselves for not measuring up to human definitions, but we need to accept ourselves exactly as we are, and to recognize the divine perfection that we embody. One way to help with this is to look with compassion at the baby picture we have of ourselves and our loved ones. To me, this illustrates that we are all on this challenging adventure that began with very brave hearts. I believe that we agreed to play roles for each other, in order to help each other to grow. I wish to express to each of you how special, beautiful and brave you are to be here.

*Check out Dr. Kristin Neff’s inspiring web site on self-compassion, http://www.self-compassion.org/

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